On Love… I took myself out on a beautiful romantic date when I was 23, when I was beginning my earnest spiritual journey…I smiled all the way through my meal I was so happy, and I bought myself roses and laid them all out around my bed in a large circle when I got home, I felt so loved… it was a pivotal experience for me… a feeling that would come and go over the years, as I remembered and forgot again, how truly loved I am from within.

When I was younger, in my early 20’s and I had made a decision to give up alcohol, I did huge work on learning to like, forgive, love and heal…

Beautiful Love happened when I began to accept everything I had been through, began to accept my role in everything I had experienced, and forgave me… its huge…

Some people reject that they have anything to forgive, there is a rigidness that can come when people are reactive about the word, or concept of forgiveness, a self righteousness that hinders the true experience of deep self love…

Some people feel so indignant about when others have hurt them that there feels no true way through the impass of pain, hurt, or of feeling disrespected.

When I have clients on the healing table who are unconsciously riddled with fear of letting this go, the surest way through is to forgive themselves for their role in the hurt from others… even if they cant see it at first, sure enough, when they accept that they had in some way allowed the hurt, the disrespect, the painful experience, their body starts to surrender, and a world of pain, energy, and anger releases from their body that they hadnt even known was present… the whole body begins to surrender and tears or deep releasing breaths spontaneously release years of deep pain that has sperated them (slightly or hugely) from truly letting love in,  from truly letting themselves feel loved by themselves.

The truth is, for me, forgiveness is one of the many forces of love, we cannot love without unconditional forgiveness (of self and all others – including God)…

when we accept how awesome we are, accepting all our imperfections, frailties, weaknesses and strengths… and are able to embrace who we are in this moment,

It is then when the heart begins to feel safe to open, safe to feel, safe to receive, safe to give, love… I